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The Saddest Man at Spring Break
It was Spring Break 2003. I was 23 years old and equal parts drunk, horny and stupid. My friend invited me to go Cancun with him and his brother. His parents had a timeshare at a high end resort...
View ArticleFuck My Funk – How I Came out of my Slump
Coming out of mental and emotion tailspin is never easy. At times I allow myself to spiral out of control very quickly. I get lost and am not sure how to turn things around. The last 2-3 months I...
View ArticleThe Little Asian from Craigslist
I was living in San Diego. My girlfriend at the time (lets call her RT) lived on the East Coast. Once a month she would come out to visit. Her and I had a really fucked up dysfunctional...
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Fuck You and Your Knife
13 years ago my friend Sober Joe and I were walking down the street at my Alma Matter. The bar had closed and we were going back to his house. Out of nowhere a girl ran out of her house wearing...
View ArticleThe Snowplow Metaphor that Became a Reality
This weekend I went to Baltimore to meet up with some friends at a Belgian Beer-fest. On Saturday evening I decided to drive back home to Philly when I saw snow starting to come fall. The weather...
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3 Day Volume Training
This is a workout I put together for a friend of mine who was only able to train 3 days per week. He is someone I would consider to have moderate to advanced experience with training. In my opinion...
View ArticleThat Feeling In Your Gut When You Just Know
There are very few things quite as powerful as your gut instinct. It’s amazing how intuitive we really are as humans. How much our body gives us so many signs and clues as to what we should and...
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The Instant I Knew It Was Me, Not Them
In my 20’s and early 30’s I ran around like a maniac. Fueled by booze, drugs and pussy. I basically lived off cocaine, steroids, pills and alcohol. Sleeping with any woman that presented herself as...
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How The Undefeated Can Feel Depleted
Being an entrepreneur almost ensures my life is a roller-coaster ride. If I look at how chaotic my life’s been for years, this like seems the only route for me. I have to learn the hardest ways...
View ArticleA Letter to Travis – Things I Wish I Was Taught About Becoming a Man
My ex girlfriend and I split up a couple months ago She has a 4 year old son who I bonded very closely with. He’s a special little guy whose laugh could make the most miserable person smile. Leaving...
View ArticleThe Squirrel Master and the Pee Snowball
Back in college I was your friendly neighborhood dopeman (This becomes important later in the story). I was always resourceful when it came to making money the wrong ways. The college was in a shitty...
View ArticleI May Not be as Batshit Crazy as I thought – Dealing With my OCD Thoughts
Up until recently (Im 35 now) I never understood the thoughts that I obsess about on a daily basis. The things that just pop up into my head and I play out in my mind OVER AND OVER again. Sometimes I...
View ArticleFreebasing with the Squirrel Master
Like Rick James said “cocaine is a hell of a drug.” The craziest thing about my coke use is that I cant recall a single time I actually enjoyed doing it. Yet I did a shit ton of it for 15 years. Coke...
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3 Day Split –“Complex” Workout
I created this program in June 2014. I used myself several times personally and with people I’ve trained. It can be rather taxing on your body. You really need to make sure your nutrition is on...
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I Want To Be The Drunk Guy Dancing At The Bar
I turned to my friends and said “look at those idiots, I’m so glad we don’t have to do that.” I ridiculed the guys dancing at the bar, trying so desperately to meet girls. In reality, most of the...
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I Got a Shitty Dragon Tattoo
When I was 21, I started getting more tattoos. My best friend, Erik, was a tattoo artist. I remember seeing a “tribally” looking dragon on a piece of flash. At that moment I knew that bad ass dragon...
View ArticleDealing with Crippling Anxiety and Fear This Morning
I went to bed last night feeling well and free looking for to the day ahead, but my mind and my dreams had other plans. I woke up in a mental prison. I was covered in sweat feeling like the flu hit...
View ArticleWhat I learned Last Night at the Casino
Last night I got the itch. I was bored, no one wanted to go out and I needed to get out of the house for a bit. I decided to take a trip to the casino. The delusions of grandeur started flowing in...
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When I Just Don’t Have The Words
Some days I can sit down and the words and emotions flow like Natty Light at a frat keg party. I can express exactly what I am feeling and thinking. I’m in a state of flow. Its a an amazing rush....
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Scrub and Pray
As I raced naked into the bathroom with my spray bottle full of alcohol, the regret started to set in. I just had unprotected sex with whatever her name happened to be on that current night. The...
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